...iMmEr_luV's FaItH...

2008-09-10T21:54:00.003+08:00

*PHEW*...JuST mAnaGE to ClEAN My hOuse..Coz my ParentS dEcidEd to GiVe mi A sPoT cheCK..LOL ... GotTa SEnD ZOrRo GO hotEl to stay COz HousE no plaCe for him if theY Come...N I"M missing hiM Already wor..How LidAt? LOL..SO wEriD To OpeN doOr not tO hAVe SOmOnE cHiong to Me..N boTHer mE...no haVe TT iNnOcEnt yEt CUnNinG eYeS sTARinG at Mi,,,Hmmm./...DonNoe if he's miSsing Me toO? HeHe..HopE THey'lL tReAT hiM niCEly aT thERe.. SChOoL iS abouT to stARt Next MonDAY...i Just FeLt D stREsS imMediAtELy WheN i STepPeD inTO D SCh to Pay SCh fEe tHaT dAay...Just HaVe tiS "Exam's ComIng" FeEl...GUeSs iTS gOnNoa bE a TOugH yR ahEAd..LOL... Peepz..My BDAE is comIng~~~~ LOL....4th OCt don't FOrGEt k~ =) LOL

2008-09-07T21:18:00.004+08:00

hey..i'm bAck..LOl so much for saying want to update more frequently? LOL ...BeEN thRu almost another 6 mths for mi to come back here again... I wanted to change everything..to gif a new look...in the end..too lazy..gave up..haha just changed my music... this one is my fav...old..but meaningful and sweet d song...=) Hehe..i'lL bE baCK sooN~ =) P.S my bdae coming..:X lol

平井堅　輕閉雙眼(在世界中心呼喚愛主題曲)
每當早晨醒來你脫下的軀殼總在身邊
過去總能感受到你背後的溫暖今天卻是一陣寒冷
停止苦笑拉開沉重的窗簾炫目的朝陽每天追趕著我
那天讓你見到我哭泣的臉眼淚映照著夕陽
每當我祈禱著能夠卸下肩膀上的溫暖
我的心與身體卻都牢記著你
YOUR LOVE FOREVER
輕閉雙眼在心中描繪你的樣子
這樣就好不管季節將我的心置於不顧
有一天對於你的事我將會失去所有的感覺吧
所以現在我仍然懷抱著這痛苦入眠也無所謂
那天我看到的星空許下了願
兩人一起探尋那光芒雖然瞬間就消失了
我的心與身體都因為你而閃耀
I WISH FOREVER
輕閉雙眼在心中描繪你的樣子
我只能如此即使世界把我留下置於不顧
YOUR LOVE FOREVER
輕閉雙眼在心中描繪你的樣子
這樣就好儘管季節將我置於不顧自顧自的改變顏色
我搜尋記憶中的你這樣就好
超越了失落而獲得的堅強是你給我的是你給我的

2008-04-11T01:36:00.003+08:00

Wah..i have not been blogging for almost half yr lei..!!! haha lazy..just to rehi~ to all moi friends..hehe recently alot of things happened..moi doggie..has been GROWING~~~ LOL...he's been big..n getting irritating le..haha but still..moi beloved..hehe sch exam's coming in less than a month..pretty stressed up..v sad..coz i wan graduate next yr~~ LOL newaYz..i'Ll upDAte soon~ hehe Luz ya~

2007-11-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

CuTe rITe?? LOL He'S tryIng to Act cuTe before he goes to sleep...

yuppie..THis is ZorRo..moi Dog..He grEw quiTE abit for the past few weeks..So cute yet so irrtating at times..guess that's part n parcel of seeing a living grows up..

I've been missing on blog for many many many weeks..i Knoe..moi friEnds probabli would think moi blog v boring coz i always dun updat..hehe sometimes..its realli pure lazyness lo..haha

I went to AH mEI's concert last thursday...All thaNkz to Moi taO~~ cOz hE boT mi n TiCKeT n WEnT w mE..He asked before the concert starts.."y u love ah mei so much ah??" guess wad i reply?? LOL i told him..wait u see finish u'll knoe...Her live..is realli dammmmmmm!@!!@#@#! power~~@@!#@!#@! yup~ coZ its AH MEI!!! she's so pretty..even w shorrt hair lo..(although look abit like Cai Qin) LOl...

moi everyday life..is kinda boring..so i didn't update regularly..scared friends get bored when read it..hehe but i've been v poor this month..(all thankz to ZorrO) haha..lucky i starting work this friday le..*phew~*

newAy..itS kinda funny..thAt i was touched by Mei's voice..until that listen to her singing..my tears came down...TAo was like shocked..heHe..guEss..the lyrics of the song...sang right into my heart...hate to be lidat..hate even more..for unable to b much stronger..its okie i guess..i've learnt tt by not caring...u'll feel less miserable..haha..i'll b happie i guess?? hehe..

LASt buT nOt LeaSt..darLing..i stiLl loVe u aLot..

2007-10-29T00:51:00.000+08:00

想太多

李玖哲

你笑著說　她是朋友　但你眼中太溫柔

我的不安　那麼沉重　只有你不懂

她霸佔了你的心中　屬於我的角落　

所以你說　我們　不是你和我

[Chorus]

是我想太多　你總這樣說　

但你卻沒有　真的心疼我

是我想太多　我也這樣說　

這是唯一能　安慰我的理由　

他霸佔了妳的心中　屬於我的角落

所以妳說　我們　不是妳和我

[Chorus]

是我想太多你總這樣說

但你卻沒有真的心疼我

是我想太多我也這樣說

這是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我沒有　錯怪了什麼　

雖然你不說　或許錯在我　

太晚我才懂　愛了你太多

This is d lyrics..for d song in my blog..love d song..n d singer..~

2007-10-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

...28Th October 2007...

TodaY..itS our AnnivErSARy~~ it officially marked..the 6th year that we've been together!!...6 years..what a long long time...looking back...i had got no regrets of knowing you my darling...luving you always...

its just kinda sad...coz..i didn't realli have much spare cash after i bot Zorro...so i decided to fold stars..for moi darling as our anniversary present...so the past wk..everyday trying my best to fold as many as i could..each and every star..i've enclose a msg inside...expressing my love for you..1314 in total..however..kinda sad..

I thought you would be happy..or at least...say that you are..but..disappointed..by the look on your face..when u saw that..it hurts..i knoe there's not much practical use of it..but i represents my love for you..going through all these while..making n thinking of you..

Anyways..think i'll get use to it..perhaps..it was not a big deal for u..realli..i hope that you had enjoyed ur day..for i had enjoyed mine..with Zorro..after you left..played with him..studied abit..fetched sister..went to eat dinner with her..

I have no idea why am i so in love with you..but i realli do..n i'm hoping for more 6 years to come...until we are old..

P.S Happie AnniVersaRy dARling..I'm Loving yOu aLwayS..

2007-10-24T09:45:00.000+08:00

...NEW~~~...

WAh..HaSnt bEen uPdaTing LikE..Yrs..wahaHa...coZ kinDa lazy PluS buSY..LOL

PeePz..I'vE REcEntly...BoT a NEw doG aGAin~~yup ThiS one.. LOl his NamE is "ZORRO"~ Yup suppOse to b LikE thaT shoW onE..But onLi tT hE dAMm CowARd La..LOL

He's jUst a sMaLl PuPpy now..BuT GOinG to grOw VeRY biG... many ppl Give mi Negative responds when i told them i bot d dog..but i dun care...coz its like a baby...for mi n my darling..hEhe..

SchOoL has bEEn As Per NorMal..BoRing..TOugH..HAiZ...

Few DaYs AGo..CeleBraTEd Moi daRLinG's bDAe...haHa..He goT sO drUnk n i mANage to Drive~~ LOL..coZ i rEntEd a Car fOr hiS bdAe..tHink i'M D OnE beNefiTEd thE moST tiS timE..cOz i cAN now Realli DriVe by myself le..not afraid animore..LOL

hmmm..aNothER 4 more days..would be mi n moi darling's anniversary le..SIX years together lei.... We haD beEn thRougH manY many things..these 6 yrs..teARs..laughter..sweet n sad memories...i'll treasure them...n keep them inside...

Sincerely hoping that..we will have many many more 6 years to go...even if we don't..i'll always love you too...*huggieS n KisSes* I Love ya~ =)

2007-10-13T01:35:00.001+08:00

好久好久沒上來了ㄟ.. ㄏㄏ不久前過完我ㄉ生日又大了一歲了也許我就快要討厭生日了?? ㄏㄏ.. 最近也還蠻忙ㄉ學校有好多新ㄉ東西要學... 不過我會がんばてです～～～是時候加加油啦..不能每每作夢浪費時間吧..=) 今晚我ㄉda跟他ㄉgay buddies企喝酒耶難怪我覺得這ㄇ無聊ㄏㄏ也許我ㄉ生命中真ㄉ不能沒有你了...=)

2007-10-03T10:33:00.000+08:00

...私のたんじょうびは明日です...

耶!! 明ㄦ個是我ㄉ誕辰ㄡ!!

可是好老了ㄡ難怪有一滴滴ㄉ傷心ㄝ..唉...

最近我的Da有給他很倒楣ㄉ說

新車竟然會爆炸ㄝ..爆炸ㄡ

我沒開玩笑看了都好心痛ㄡ...*惜惜*

才剛新買ㄉ說..

ㄚ母溝, 還好有買保險應該有ㄉ賠ㄉ!!

唉反正還好人沒事ㄝ..

差點嚇死ㄡ..ㄏㄏ

明日私のたんじょうびですてもちょうと寂しですよね...

貴方の愛をいちばんほしですから...

2007-09-29T00:24:00.000+08:00

ㄏㄏ心理小小的高興耶

我的寶貝昨天給了我一個大大的驚喜耶但是...

有一點怕怕的..殊不知這樣的開心能撐多久..

我想...

因為在這段愛情裡..

扮演了一直付出ㄉ那一方

往往因為愛ㄉ比較多

而也會傷ㄉ比較重吧...

我想相信..

你是真ㄉ在乎我..需要我...

我真ㄉ不會再去相信

一個我當朋友怕被傷害, 但卻把我當屁ㄉ人..

傷心...

因為我覺得我已經盡力了是時候要多愛自己一點了

因為好愛你

好愛好愛你...

2007-09-27T16:17:00.000+08:00

...SUrprise~~~....

I've just cried...how? moi darling..gave mi a surprise bdae present..(even though abit earli)..by putting this big mashi maro on moi bed when i was off to sch...i got shocked...but aft tt..cried...touched...for he nv did these things before...

thanks darling..for giving mi such a present..its the thought of giving mi surprise that makes mi so sooooooo happi...tot u would just forgot abt moi bdae...i'll hug d mashi maro to slp every nite now k~ =)

lUv u so Much much..hehe...THankz baby..!!

2007-09-21T12:30:00.000+08:00

愛我, 好嗎?

今天想換一種不一樣ㄉ方法來寫網誌但知道大家都會看不懂ㄝ..

突然有享家的感覺耶!!

所以想要用最親切的語言來寫下我ㄉ心情...

現在的我還是會絕得我身處在一個不是我該在ㄉ城市

周圍的一切都既親切但又陌生...

這裡真是一ㄍ充滿回憶ㄉ地方ㄚ...

但是好像傷心ㄉ贏了!! m( _ _ )m

不知道為什麼... 明明就累到沒有力氣了

還死都不放棄不知道在ㄍㄧㄥ什麼...

常常ㄡ都ㄚ自己一個人胡思亂想..

想著想著就會哭ㄡ..

付出了這麼多好像永遠都不會夠ㄝ...

難道說...

我真的是上輩子欠了他的?

還是是我的報應..?

每天每天心理擔心的事都一樣

越不想ㄑ想但偏偏又越會在腦裡浮現...

好累好累付出這麼多但卻都看不到以後

我想我該學著放手....

p.s 也許明天會有一個人真ㄉ只愛我....

2007-09-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

Am in a very funny mood now...decided to blog..LOL..depressing times...couldn't realli get myself out of it these days..no idea why.. Uncertainty drowning me...jealousy..eating me up from inside...can no longer tolerate the sight of her...the sound of her name...it might make me sound just so much like a bitch...but i dun care...i'm a bitch..so wat..haiz... moi bdae is coming...but guess nothing special will happen..it will just be so much of another day..LOL...life..getting more n more pointless..couldnt realli see a direction to go.. tired...had used up all my energy...to struggle..to fight...giving up bit by bit...trying to walk away step by step..itll nv be easy...but neither is lying to myself.. Just..is there anione..who will realli care abt how i feel? afterall..i just wan you to care...

2007-09-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

...LifE...

10 days had gone..since i last updated..many things happened..but no will of writing up here..no idea why...

pondering over the same old question..if i can see no real future..is there a point to carry on? LOL.. faught w him a few days ago..some thing that had realli upset me..it might seemed to him tt its such a small thing..but to me..w not much security left..its big enough..to defeat me..aniway..i've learnt something...the more u care..the more hurt you'll feel..since there is no will to change..then i'll choose not to care..tired..exhausted..mentally n physically..d next time similar things happen..guess i'll choose to let go..how easy would that be? it could never possibly b easy..for love..is so deep..

going out w xy n esther tml..since tt he's not free..i'm trying to enjoy my life as much now..preparing myself..if one day i've gotta b left alone..at least..emptiness will not..or at least not as bad..drown me..till death..

glad to knoe that my gf..had walked out of her relationship..perhaps glad is not suppose to be the word..but..i think..at least she learnt lessons out of tt..n will b much more ready for the next to come..babe..hope your prince charming will come sooner..luv ya always~

P.S. lucky i'm back in sch..decided to shift the centre focus of moi life..back to studies...i'm losing the will to fight...

2007-09-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

....YEAH!!!!!....

*phew*..YeaH..finalli results' Out..HaPpie!!! coz i Manage to PAss ALl...Nv saY v FAntastic d resulT la..Not sAy sUpER gooD oR wAd..buT stiLl..At LEaSt paSsEd..LOL

todAy..dOnnoE is gOod oR Bad..Moi leSbo paRtnEr..Shi Lian..v sad for her...wonder y...love is so hard to come by...

nvm..she's a strong girl..i believe..she'll be fine n happie in no time...girl..if u wanta cry..i'll lend u moi shoulder k~ big enough for sure..coz became fat le..hehe luv ya so much~=)

new term is starting...guess i'll use more energy to study..wanting to achieve good result..so as moi life would have become more fulfilling..

P.S..i still love moi darling alot..*hugZ* ehhe :P

2007-09-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

...あなだのｈｅａｒｔをほしいです...

went to da's lion dance place there to bai for 7 month..brot back a pail of funny things that i never eat..LOL...no idea wad to do w them..hehe

kinda feel weird now...went to nap just now..suddenli woke up at 8 plus..felt panic for a while..for i felt lost..coz i nv get ani msg or call from him..the kind of panic i felt..was hard to describe..no idea why is it lidat..cried..coz i hate this feeling..the feeling of not having you w me..the feeling of not being important to you animore..HaiZ...just tell mi how can i leave you..?

actualli..kinda angry w moiself..think that i've realli got too much of the free time...coz i think tat moi mind is playing pranks on me..had crazy ideas in d morning..felt like getting another tatoo..~~ i wan have something..but no idea where wan to put it and what to put..hehe..guess its a way for me to relief..moi stress? LOL

school starting soon next wk..results should b out tml..life should be getting back to normal le..think i'll try to get moi mind off from unhealthy stuffs..think should get back on track..with moi life..school..tuition..school..

Being emo..is a very deadly disease..at least for me..i realli hated it..it can just suddenli drive moi mood..to the darkness..i wan to be happie...mayb i should b happie already...coz i'm in love..?then..can explain to me..why do i feel those emptiness inside? LOL

p.s. emo-strike in progress..kaoz..

2007-09-02T04:16:00.000+08:00

...Nice Surprise... TOdAy..it Rained like shit in the afternoon..sudden down pour..have no idea why the weather is like that now a days..global warming is experienced so vividly..this afternoon..hehe..its suppose to be like hot n dry season for the past 2 months..yet rained almost everyday.. but!! an v amazing thing happened to me today...hehe...i was walkin home..in moi sun glass..aft that madnesss down pour...donnoe what made mi look up to the sky...i could see the sun shining...n guess what..!! I SAW RAINBOW~~~~~ hehe..so pretty...it is just below a cloud next to d sun...n could onli be seen when i was in d sun glass..so sweet...hehe Rainbow..had brightened up moi day..

2007-08-31T00:14:00.000+08:00

...love...

Well..its been another day..was cleaning moi house..sleep..anticipating when d results would be out..and yet..another day..

just talked to moi lesbo partner..n read her blog..it hurts mi so much..when i knew that she had tumbled in this game of love too..

It hurts alot..to see her lidat..coz i knew d feeling..of being hurt..let along those tears that had dropped..

nOt realli understand the full story..just bitz n pieces..still..no matter what had happened..it had happened..let the past rest..its the future that matters..

babe..i miss your smiles..knew u had weak times too..stand up soon..for drowning yourself in the quick sand..will not help much..go for it..no matter what obstacles there are...follow your heart..love..is not abt being rational..is more like act on impluse..

hang in there babe and dun be afraid..coz u knoe..if u fall...you still have a bunch of friends..including me..to be there to catch you..i've walked through the darkest time of moi love life..with the help from people like you..my dearest friends..who were there to support and cry w me..so now its time for me to do the same for you...

Love..ain't suppose to be happie? guess..tt's the reality...it makes you feels that you can do anithing when u are in love..yet..when you fall..its just like you've been thrown down from the highest point of the world..

yet..i'm still in love..=)

2007-08-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

~~>*KaWaiIii...LOL..CutE ritE..~~~:) *<~~

...Shhh....

woOt..THat's Me..tRYinG to AcT cute in Moi nEw BluE Blouse..Hehe kinda Like thaT blouSe..LOL

TOdAy wEnt Out w An oLd frieNd beFore JaP klaSs..KindA weRid feEling..buT too haVe THe fAmiliar FeELing likE oLd TImes..HaiZ..Hehe..WaTchEd RaTatooIe (or wAd eVa its SpeLl..LOL) ItS sUcH a CUTe ShoW..d RAT is sO cUte.. but not thE CASe wHen a SceNe of one wHOlE GAnG of thEm~~~ LOL mOi friend had not changed abit..perhaps onli became more muscular? hehe..but he's sooo SweEt lo..waLk PaSs fLower SHop..n auTO boT a cUte beaRy FLowEr for d gF...i aLso wAN~~~!!! hehe..

feELing abiT wERiD now a dAYs..Abit upsEt thaT me n Moi Dada wouLd QUaRrEl ovEr sMaLl sMaLl tHings...PerHapS..He's JuZ tiREd of sEeing moi fAce for liKe 6 YRs Le..Or perhaPs..i'vE bEen DOtIng oN hiM too MucH thAt Now..iF i maKe NoisE or VOicE ouT mOi fusTraTIon...It sOunds MucH More LikE whiNing..hAIz..

~~~>* ShHh..SeCreTz... *<~~~ I Guess.evERboDy in Life..sUre have sOme sEcRetz..fOr it To BE..SOme haPpiE surprIses..or sOme DarK n DirTy onEs..it iS nv PosSIble to get to knoe those secrets..if the Person would keep in silent in thEir hEArTs..you cAn onLy TruSt..the wOrds thaT they wEre sAying... I hopE thaT theRE ARen't rEaLli thinGs thAt i Didn'T knoE..thaT wouLd maKe Moi wOrld COllapsEd afTer i knoe thEm...

2007-08-24T22:44:00.000+08:00

...YeaH~~...

Yoz Peepz..heHE..i'M baCK agAIn..HEhe..Moi frieNd aLways comPaiNt thaT moi blog v boRing..He v irRitaTIng eH..LOL no liKe dEN dun come c Lo..~~ LOL HehE..newAy..i wAs so bo liaO so make Moi nEw naIlz...cuTe rite?? so LovE moI nailZ~~`..heHE i rEAllI LikE to plaY n MakE mOi oWN naILz..coz i thinK go ouT makE v ExpenSive..thouGh mOi SkiLls nOt good..But at leaSt got D sAtiSfaCtiOn~~ LOl Moi dEAr fRieNds..wAn mi heLp maKe naILs cAN teLl mi k~ heHe... luv ya my baby~~miz ya lotz =) P.S bTW diDI..tHAnkz..fOr likinG mOi neW bLog sKin~ HEhe..Luv ya~ =)

2007-08-20T08:04:00.000+08:00

...Done...

i've finally..gave my blog a facelift..hehe..weird huh? kinda white n pink..so not me..LOL

i'lL be updating soon with new photo album...just to share my life w ya folks..who actually do read it..*how amazing ppl do read my blog? LOL coz its so like..erm shitty?*

BorEd..school staRting soOn..n haVe been in an eMo state agaiN..How? LOL..bTw..i'M goiNg to c Moi FavOuritE aH meI's cOncErt eh~~ aLl thaNkz to mOi taO..Hehe..He's sOoooOo SwEEt~~ LOL..

mIss sChoOl actualli..thiNK people might think that i'm mad..who on earth misses school anyway~? heHe..coZ i fEel thaT moi LifE now is kindA poinTLeSs..Lazying aRound evErydAy..onLi give tuiTIons..LOL..neWay..thiNk i'lL makE a beTa teAchER thaN a banker bA..LOL dislikE thosE intEnsE competitioN in thE biZ fiEld..But..wad to do? NeEd to haVe enOugh CaSh beFore i Can SetTle foR aNithinG thAt i LikE...

WenT baCK to tw Last wK..it was so swEet..coz eVen though i have like got no friends there le..but at least i still have moi family~ hehe...Met up w cousin..He's gonE reALli taLl..LOL so Werid..But he's v notti..coz didn't dare to tell his gf tt he's out to meet me..haha coz he said..she don't allow..~~ weird people..

Love..is a werid thing..it can make you lose ur head when in love..you'll do so much things..that are so unacceptable or infringe your own standards..well..guess the deeper is your love..the harder it is when you fall out of it..

Neway..hope u guys like d song..coz its my new fav now..by my beloved ah mei..lyrics is so sweet..i wish..my prince charming..would treat me the same..=)

2007-08-17T12:03:00.000+08:00

...RecENtLy...

wAh..it fElt liKe foReVer..sinCe i'vE laSt bLoggEd..HeHe..rECentLy wENt baCk to TAiwAn..sO haPpiE..dId maNy cRAzY sHOPpinGs...Bot 4 paIrs of sHoes..n Lots of New CLothEs~~ wOot..!! hEHe..But in fAct...Went baCk cOz Dad wenT tHrouGH somE minOr oPeraTion..CuTtinG ofF all d bLack "moLes" on His BoDy..DOc Say..tHosE BlaCk LumpS..cOuLd be cANcErouS...So LucKy thAT thOSe on his bodY WeRe haRmlesS>..*pheW..*

hEHe..So SIaN..hOLidaY eNDIng soOn..EXaM reSuLt is GOing to coME out In 2 WKs timE..KaoZ...wOndERinG how maNy i paSseD..sHit..tHink i'lL STudY haRd From this sem lE..No poiNt waStinG all thOse timEs aNimoRe...cOmpetitioN in d wOrkiNg worLd is sO intEnse..iF i dun WOrK hard..i'll losE to d REst...GAMBATE!!!

My dARling..Met w AccidENt just 2 dAys beFOre i WEnt baCk to tW..sO sCaRY..wheN i gOt d MotheR's CAll..Moi heARt aLmosT stoPpeD...wORst thinG is thaT..i sAw tT cRasheD vehicLe..On My wAY doWn to hospitaL..KaoZ..WhoLe dRivER's dOor was smaSheD..all wIndscReeN plUs sidE windOws shatTered...i waS so sHOck thaT tEArS wouldn't eVen coMe oUt..LucKy..He waS reALli LucKy..tHAt he sufFer onLi minoRe injury..

i bEliEve in goD..aLl forMs of hiM..aNd rEspeCt aLl reLigious' beLeives..i tHink..we reALlI neEd to beLieVe in theM..so thaT..we can haVe someOne to be by ouR side..to comfort us..wheN thingS weNt the wrOng wAy..wHen thingS aRe uncontRolablE by humaN..

mY dARlinG..iS so GOod nOw..sO haPpiE thAT we aRe so In LovE aGain...ALthouGHt he'lL stiLl diSturB mE likE hELl..But i cAN feeL thE lovE..tHat he has fOr me..hEHe...I LovE you my dARling~~~ =)

2007-08-06T07:22:00.000+08:00

...SiLvEr LinIng...

Wah...i'Ve finished my HarRy poTteR..finAlLy..thOugh RelucTaNtLy...But it WAs verY nice...MADe Mi Cry...LovE d fAntasy..anD thiS loNg JouRneY wIth HarrY potTer...HaD EndeD..guess..thERe'Ll Not Be AniMore StoRieS..thAt COulD haVe atTracTeD Me..thE waY thiS FAntaSY dId...

My WeeKeNd had beEn greAT...wEnT out wIth my DarLing, chaNg Da anD neo...hEhe..WeNt to WAtCh 'ALone'...WaH liew..dAmN ScAry Lo..rEallI thE GHoSt...But the STorY LinE waS not BAd...eXcEPt fOr the Mad WOmaN pARt..Yup..Hehe..CHaNg Da..Was So hIlarious In D ciNemA Lo...He got shoCKed by tHE ghoSt..dEn Jump Up from HIs seaT n cuRse n SweaR.LOL...ended uP laFfIng at Him Most oF the tiMe than reallI waTchiNg the SHow..LOL *aniway..i also covering my eyes most of d time...i'm a scaredy caT~~~ LOL *

i'Ve rEAlised..ChaNGeS arOund mE...PeoPle..aRe beHavIng In diFfErenT manNeRs thaN beFore..somEonE aCtuaLlY...calLed mE afTeR so Long...iT was WEriD aT 1st...COz i didn't KnOE whaT to eXpeCt..n whaT to REaCt..but i'vE choSen tO forGiVe...n i'll Just tRy my beSt tO fOrgEt...thOugh i dOubT how eAsy thAT cOULd be doNe...i Just KnEw thaT..i WOulDn't bE aBlE to haTe ANiOne..no maTteR How MucH hEArT aChE thEY migHt haVe cauSed me...i'lL Try My bESt..To TrEAt hER thE saMe wAY as LaSt tiMe...i'm Just hOpiNg thAt...thE saMe thinG wiLl noT haPpen aGAIn...i rEallY...No wAN to gO thRouGh the heLl timE aNiMore..for i woULd haVe No More sTrengTh..tO PicK mysELf uP fRom tHE beTraYal oncE More....

NeWAy..My dArling...iS a reAlly dIfFEreNt perSon Now..i dOnnoE whY...FeLt..so LovEd by hIm aLll of a SuddEn...whIch of coZ...MaDe mI vEry haPpY...tReAsuRing eVeRYmoMent Of it...i have DOubtS..in HOw LonG this wouLd LAst...wiTH myseLf thaT how long i cOuld reMain Like thiS w/o PisSing hIm oFf agAin...i'll jUSt hOpe that...the time thAT i'Ve prAYed fOr sO Long..havE finaLly aRrivEd..Now..N i'lL pRay for thiS to conTInue..fOr eVerY oF the dAYs that we arE togetHer...unTiL forevEr...I KnOw..i Love yOu.. Its jusT amaZing How mucH pAin Can a Woman taKe...i TruELy thinKs thaT femaLe couLd haVe tAKe Pain muCh More than MalE if neCesSarY...foR thEm..wiLl keEp the PaiN inSIde..remorSe over it.aNd LeaRN oF iT..wHiLe foR man..thEY'lL finD thingS to disTraCt theIr Pain..anD soOn they'lL bE ovEr it...wELl..GUeSss thAT's jusT onE of thoSE things that DIsTIngUish a womaN frOm a MAN rite? LOL..donNoe waD cRaPs i'm tAlKinG now...haha...

LasTLy...I'm decLarIng to eVERyoNe...i'm In LovE!!! agaIn~~~ LOL....wiSh me HappInesS? =)

P.S. Oh Ya Peeps..Ah meI's new ALbum "sTAR" rOX..~~~ *lol* =)

2007-08-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

...Sick...

SIan...I'M LitEraLly Sick...sOre tHroat n RUnNing Nose..HAiz..thIs is My 1St tiMe siCk dUrIng thIS yR...SuaY..ThiS irRitATing SoRe throaT..Is MAkiNg me uPsEt..AGiTatEd..FOr No ReaSOn..Haiz..HATed iT..

tOdAY..So fUn..i MadE frIed PoRk CHoP cUrRy fOr Me n My DArLing FOr LuncH..YeaH.!! my 1ST tiMe maKinG..tURn Out to b a SucCeSs..WAs afriad thaT he WOulDn't EAt..coz he No LiKe to TrY nEw FooD..BuT suRpriSinGlY thAT hE liKe EH..HEhe...so hAPpiE...ThinK i REaLli becomE likE aN AUntIE Le..SHiT..LOL NotHing bETa to dO..cOok..cLeaN hOuse..wAsh KitCHeN...*bleAh* haIz..

My DarLing..HaS beEn vErY gOod To Me..cAme to FEtcH mE fROm my jAP kLaSs yESteRdaY..ehHe..YeSTerdAY..i WAs LoOking FOr SOmeTHing..deN sAW dARling's ITE's TExT Bk...He Realli wAs bOrEd coZ he dReW aLot OF thingS ontoP..memOrieS of wE 1st wEnt tOgeTHer oVerwhElmeD me..fInaLlY..i'vE fOund baCk the 1ST tOUch...1St timE thaT i fElt aTtrRActEd tO hiM...d OrIGinAL LovE thaT i have..I jUSt WIshEd thAT..it'lL be thE sAme..fOr hiM...hOpe thaT he CouLd REcAll..How WE WEre LaSt timE..LovIng eaCH otHer..aNd eAch otheR onLy..No mattEr what otHEr PeoPlE mIghT dO to huRt our reLatiONsHiP..i'M tRyinG my VeRy best..tO hoLd it tigHt...hOld it toGethER...=)

ThinK i'm ofF to reSt..sIck LikE hEll...FEeLinG tERribLe..WisHing thaT my dARlinG is by MysIDe nOw...Lol...LovE ya~ =)

"LonGiNg TO bE taKen CaRe oF insTeaD..."

2007-07-31T06:47:00.000+08:00

...haRry PotTer...

COminG to An end oF the NEw HarRy PotTer..REaDing sO SloWly...thiNkinG thAt iT wiLl neVeR coMe to an End..BuT it wiLl..i KnoW..juST thaT peRhaPs wiLl aBiT sAd..cOZ iT haS beCOme pArt Of d lifE..

WEnT tO kTV w My DeareSt taO n LeSI pARtnEr jOycie...SO fUn..wE sinG n sinG..fOr a sTraigHt 5 Hours..LOL...SaW SHE in PersOn aS wE weRE leavinG thE placE..thEY were SO PReTtY..

THinK i'M haVinG soMe StupiD prOblEm wITh miNe owN boDy..HeHe..kePt ThrOwinG up AfTer i eaT...i Nv eAt aLot!! rEAllI..jusT meREly a paCk oF chiCKeN riCe thAT day..N WHeN to PukE aFt WHicH..HahA..mADnEss..NoW..doN't DaRe to Eat tOo mucH..cOz rEAllI haTe tO vomit..LOL..pERhAPs can LosE wEigHT?? hEHe..

HaVe bEen thiNkinG a Lot AbOut Mine rElaTionsHip LatEly..peRHaPs..theRe WerE jUSt tOo mucH tiMe...i JusT rEAlisEd thaT..eVeRytHing..dOn'T hurT aS mucH aS it Did beFore anyMore..juSt tirEd OF cRyiNg...n beIng sAd...tHink i WOulD LiVe foR myself..MorE..realLi..he had beEn nicE thEse fEw dAYs..buT i'vE got a wEriD fEeling..couldn'T be reaLlI hapPie..coZ..i do nOt wAN to eXpect tOo mucH...FOr ThaT haPpinEss..wOuLd bE taKeN awaY fRom Me..ani mOment..bUt i appreCIaTe it..rEAlli..

i'lL miSs harrY PoTtEr OncE i'vE finiSHed iT..=(

*listeninG to 'Ta hai shi bu dong - S.H.E' n emo in progress...*

2007-07-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

...When...

tday..my darling had his new car..sadly enough..i wasn't d 1st one in it..haiz..

when days goes by..feeling more n more tired..of waiting...waiting for the day..you will remember..to do something for me..w/o me being have to open my mouth n ask...

i wonder..why do guys..have this problem..of recognising..the importance..of doing even the slightly ting for those whom they claimed they love..don't you guys know that by doing small small things..would have meant the whole lot difference for that person? i'm tired of waiting for that day to come...coz it appears that it would never happen..

theres no point..to hide real emotion in here...afriad of letting people see what's realli inside of me..coz that'll just defeat the whole purpose of blogging..well..right now..i felt..being forgottened..and it is somehting..that i'm feeling all this while..

life goes on..with or without what ever that i view as important..guess i'll just have to deal with it and move on..

Its just me..my loneliness and harry potter now....

*getting use to loneliness in progress..*

2007-07-25T00:44:00.000+08:00

...REunIon...

Woo..toDay meT up With D giRls..SEcOndARy sChoOl budDIes..Wah..sO lonG nv sEe LinG lIao..Hehe fINally sAw hEr..MisS thE gooD oLd timEs... loVe yA gIrLs...FrieNds FOreVeR n evEr Okie? =) N in cAse yOu alL comE viSit Moi Blog..tIs is d besT i caN comE up with coz i'M so MucH of a COmputEr idiOt..LOL...N leAvE mi MSg msG okie?

It would JusT never be the same...those school days..those youth..and innocence..had already lost..in time...

wonder..WheN wiLl i AchIEvE my Dream..wHen wIll You fiNaLlY undErsTand..WheN wiLl i bE Loved..agAin...

2007-07-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

...Rainy Day...

woO...it has been raining for days...so happie...coz so cold cold...go out time..feel like as if i'm back home...back at taiwan..hehe

Its actually amazing..how much i felt so attached to that place...even though i've been here for almost 11 yrs now...i still longing to return there..even just for a whil.e..hehe...guess...i realli miss home..there...has the memories of home...everyday after school..go home...can see people waiting at home..asking to eat..watch tv together...haIz...just that it will nv be d same animore..

Everytime..when i'm at my da's house...i feel the family love..that they have for each other..even though da would always disturbs his bro shaney boi..haha..they just look so loving...n some times..i feel...so out of place...i would feel that i'm intruding..people's privacy...going into people's family..n donnoe for wad...they are very nice..realli very nice to me...treat me as if i'm like their daughter...they feel proud of me..when i excel in something...n i'm really greatful..n thankful for their love...coz...they don't really need to be that nice..they are not really obligated to be nice to me..but they do...which really warms my heart...

Family love..people tend to take for granted..coz you could see them everyday..so when someone nags at you..you'll lose temper n all...just wait till one day that someone is gone..perhaps..you'll feel like me...

I know exactly why i miss my family so much...coz it is the only place..where i'll be loved..doted on...no matter what i did...n i would no need to prove myself just in order to be loved..

i'm MisSing hOme...terribly...

2007-07-23T11:57:00.000+08:00

...tiMe oF uncErtAinty...

WaH..So Long nv Blog..LOl..coZ kindA leaD a boring Life..whIning..dOesn'T reaLly heLp mucH..LOL

Recently..realise something terrible..that i'm just not strong..LOL have absolutly no idea..why do i cry so easily..its kinda worrying me..is it signs of depression? or just purely lack of security? HahA...

DonNoe whY fEeLinG So insEcuRed..ProbaBly comIng froM those diSturBing nIteMaRes..HAha..d Most rEceNt One..i dreaMt thaT i gaVe birTh!! LOL to A rEAl cuTe baBy GIrL..weLl cAN still rem how happie i was in my dream..coz i finally felt that there are someone..who really belongs to me...that i can spend whole heart..loving..and i knoe..i'll stand an irreplacable place in d heart...hehe...sounds cute rite?...but d nitemare part is...i dreamt..i was carrying her in my arms...n d next moment..i started bleeding..and died...!!!!(*#%*$(^@~@!# LOL..How WEriD WAs that?..Hehe...Ppl sAY..dREamS nOrmaLlY..doNt rEAllI comE true..But actually..it refLects your deepest fear, desire..and those true emotions..N i'm StarTing to believe in it..

I do wan to have a baby...its okie..if who ever the father is going to be..will not be there..i'lL do my very best to gif my child a home....Haha..aBit weird for a person who's my age saying abt all this...*lol* i may look strong..independent...but guess.. all these dreams...are just telling me that i'm just afraid..of losing..the ones that i love so dearly...and longing...for a family and someone..to love me..some one...to dote on me..that i can no longer need to be strong..for that person..would shelter me...

i'm stiLl searching...buT i sinCerely hope..that you aRe the one...reaLli..

2007-07-12T09:03:00.000+08:00

...InSpIraTioN...

i'M back FrOm SHaNg Hai~ hEHe..It WAsn'T so gLamourous As i tot it wOulD bE..BuT neWay..iT waS BetA thaN most othEr paRts of cHina..Hehe..

BoT thiS BooK at the AirPorT beFore i LEft.."the five people you meet in heaven" by Mitch Albom..yup i Knoe itS aN oLd bOok..BuT it's NevErthELess..a NiCe bOok..

"all endings are also beginnings. We just dont know it at the time.."

a Life's eNd..wouLd haVe beEn a nEw beGinNing in heaven? i thInk i belieVe thaT..When eAch oF us diE..I hoPe thERE arE reAllY theSe 5 PersoNs in heAven..tHAt we'lL meEt..And thEY'lL exPlaiN to Us..wHAt was the MeaninGs oF our LivEs..aNd WHy ARe wE gOinG thRough thE thingS thaT we are ExperienCing...

"We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade and those harm we do..we do to ourselves..."

Hatred...is such a strong emotion..i believed that you need to first love the thing/person very much..before you hate them. Hate includes emotions like jealousy, envious, or just pure dislike. I also hated people..but it is realli eating me up from inside..no one else would have felt the pain..except urself..anD i REaLly fEeLs the ErOsIon..whIch MakEs mE haTed evEn More...FOrgiveness..is the greatest art on earth..which seemed as if its the most unattainable thing..however..precious..Its only through forgiveness..we can feel peace..happiness..true happiness i mean..i'M tryiNg my best..jusT thaT thinK i'lL HavE to worK a LitTle haRdER to AchiEve thaT staTe of tRUe haPpinEss..=)

FeLt so mUch insPirEd by MitcH ALbOm..reaD aLl hiS bOoks..From "tueSday witH Morris", to this and his latest book.."For JusT oNE MorE dAy"..i've LeaRnT the LEsSOn of Life..tHrouGh his woRK..juSt HoPe thaT iT wOuLd haVe BeEN carRieD Out..aS hoW it shOulD bE..aNd hOpE goD..WouLd sENd tHe 5 PersOns thAT i'm SuPposE to meet wHEn i dIe..tO eXPlaIn tO mE..THe MEaNing of My ExisTenCe..aNd thE ReaSon for My LovE TO yOu...

2007-07-06T15:22:00.000+08:00

...It's D Day...

LeaVing fOR ShaNghaI tMl..FeEL so fUnNy..cOz KeEP fLyinG..LOL..KinDa sAd..But JUSt gO for a fEw days de..THinK aLsO GOoD..TakE a bReaK..fROm all tHe meSs hERe..

ThiS MorNing wOkE up with d sAme tYpe oF nIghTmaRe agAin..Lucky DreAms aRe aLwaYs d Opp Of reAliTy..wHicH meANs tHat yoU'lL AlwAYs Be theRe wiTH me..I'm StaRtinG to ForGive..EvEN thOugH it neEds tIme.. If Not..What wiLl haTRed maKe mE? SaMe aS Tt PerSOn? LOL If it's sUpPosE to bE minE..wIth tRUsT..wE cOuLd go FUrTHer..I BELieVe..In fAte..DeStiny..N my dEstinY..is yOu..For tT perSOn..i JusT hOpe thAT CouLd rEAlisE soOnER n LAtEr..fiNd her oWn happinEss..Coz Her haPpineSs..dOes Not lIes iN ouR haNds..onE oLd fRIend toLd Me..We mUst LEt go 1sT beFOre ANithinG gOoD wOUlD coMe..i BeLieVe evEryonE dEserVe theiR truE Love..N i'M so glaD thaT wE haVe FOund eAch OTheR...

TakeCARe my DaRLing..wHen i'M aWAy..DUn Do nonSEnsE thinGs ok? LOL..i'Ll AlwayS thinK of yoU whEN u aRe not w mE...MisS yA aLreaDY..~ *hugZ* sEe ya WHeN i'M baCK~ Luv ya..

2007-07-05T07:09:00.000+08:00

...Our SOng...

d SOnG..tHat'lL fOrEvER Be tHERe...COz iTs OuR sOng =)

ActuAllY..FEeLing EMo Now..SAd..cRyInG eVeRy dAy fOr SOme DreaMs tHat jUSt SO sEeMs tHat iS sO fAr fAr aWAY fROm Me..ALl i Wan to SAY..JusT LovE N FeeL Love..ENjOy evERy MomeNt whEN u aRe inLove..FOr aLl U knOe..WHen it'lL bE gOne..fReakiNg HElL..tiRed..Guess...NeXt tIme On My wIsh List..WOuLd Be..To sLeEp fOreVer..~ NiTez Peepz..

2007-06-30T23:16:00.001+08:00

HeY peeps..HeE NicE cAR huh? Hee..Moi dArLing'S FutUre CAr..So hAPpiE..cOz We ARe ShaRing it..FeEl sO muCh ReAllI LikE a fAmilY nOw..LOl *muaCk* Love yA Lotz..TAkecARe oF ouR baBy WelL ok? Hee..

2007-06-27T16:07:00.000+08:00

...MomEnts of FolLy... SuddEnly a whoLe heLl of eMotIon RusEd inTo me..NothiNg paRticUlaRLy haPpeNed..just FeeLinG LoneLy.. SistEr haD just eXclaimed to mE..tHat SHe wouLd Be LeavinG SingapoRe foR goOd aFt She has comPleted heR tiS yR of STudY. ThaT realLy jusT meANs..i'lL bE in SingaPore all By mYsElf..ActuaLly..kind of HaPpiE..Becoz NoOne WoulD eVer FIghT w mE..MeSsY d HousE n i WoulD hAvE to Pick..BuT thAt toO meaNs..I wOuld bE rEAllY aLonE.. DayS aRe BorIng..HoPinG sChOoL WOuLd sTaRt SOoN..N sTiLl Am MissinG You..N LovIng yOu evERdAY EveRyMomeNt of My Life..Gets jeAlouS EasIly..But acTuallY..KinDA gLad thAT i haVe YOu By My sIDe..So hAPpiE wheN u sAId..yOu aRe BuyinG a cAr..n i WoulD hAve TO sHaRe w u..i'lL b MorE thaN GlaD to do SO...Coz it mEans thaT..You aRe AccEpting Me..N KeePinG me Close to yOu..To yOur Life..froM NoW on..thaNkZ for LovinG me..I beLeivE..fOr yOu tO be in My life..maYb i'lL haVe jeAlOusly..teArs..But tHAt tOo GaVe mE..aLl thE mEaning in My LifE noW..aNd FurtHErmore..i'M sO BleSsed By YOur Luv...THank yOu dARling...EvEn thOugh u May nOT tAKe tiMe to read thIs or wAdsOeVer..I stiLl wANtA tELl u..thaNk yOu...And Love yOu ForEver...=) "We are gonna grow old together!!! Thankz fOr LovIng Me..=) *muack*"

2007-06-26T13:57:00.000+08:00

LOL..He's D Man In My Life..THouGh THerE aRe ALoT of THingS In BEtWeEn uS Now..I sTILl bElieVe..hE'lL bE thE onE W Me..UntiL We aRe oLd..~~hehe.. I LoVe YOu... I MiSs You... N i'M gOnNa MaRrY You~~ LOL =)

2007-06-25T16:32:00.000+08:00

2007-06-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

...ImmeR_LuV... PeoPlE aLwayS aSk..waD dOeS "immER" MEans..WeLl..ImMer = ForEvEr iN GermAN...HEhe..SurPrISe hUh..I'vE leARnt GerMan FoR 2 YeARs Plus wheN i WaS in SEconDarY..ALmosT foRgoT aLl Le..LOL OnLi COulD rEM How to SAy..."ICH HABE HUNGER" (i'M HungR)? haha N "WIE ViELE COsTe DaS" (HoW MUch DOes TiS dAMm thINg COst)? Haha...wElL LangUageS aRe fUn..LearNt aBT peoPlE's cUlTUre..As wElL aS SOmE fuNnY NEw thinGs..isN't iT COoL tO bE aBlE tO taLk N bE undErsToOd By OthER peOPlE of oTHer NAtioNaLitY in tHEir NAtiVE LAngUagEs? HAha..WElL..I wOuLd LiKe to tAke uP aGaIn iF i EvER had D chANce..HEe DaYs..ARe borIng...No sCh..GEtTing fAT..N LAzY..OnLi tHinG tHAt makeS me FeeL ALivE n Not DeaD is WheN i'm OuT tEAchinG tuiTIon..I'Ve Now hAve 6 sTudEnts in TOtal LE~~ LOL imPreSsiVe HUH? HAha..They aRe aLl sO cUte..FeeL sO mUCh LiKe Me WHeN i wAs YOung...RemiNds Me oF tHoSE gOoD oLd DayS..WHeN i waSn'T so BothEReD WItH Love.. I wOndEr..wHy dO peOplE beHaVe D waY theY dO? sO BelIeVe in Our Soci's SAYing oF "sOciAL sTruCtuRe.." PeoPle ARe GreATLy AFfEcTed By tHe tHingS wE sAw on TV..Our DAiLy LivEs..etc etc..LiKE Me...gEts eNvy wHeN seEIng A Bf hOLding d Gf's Bag..gEtS toUchEd WHen i c HuSBaNdS hoLding thEir DeaResT prEgnaNt WIvEs' Hand..TreasuRes tHEm LikE their EvEr LAsTIng DIaMonds..LoVe..Is REALlI thE gREatEst tHing in THe wORLd..That KEePs PeoPle tOGetHEr..THaT tOo teaRs PeoPle apaRt..WheN We SeE PEoPle DoiNg THoSE heARt WaRMinG thIngs..YoU WOuLd eXPect YOuR one tO do THe sAme toO..jUst thaT..noT eVeRyOne..iS PErFect...iN fAct..No OnE is PErfeCt.. LovE..BrIngS peoPle togEtheR..FaitH..KeEPs LovERs cLosE to each oTheR..WhiLe sELfishNeSs..WILl dEstRoYs EvERytHIng..eVeN thE onE yOu LoVe .. ManY peoPle..SEes owN haPpiNeSs in fROnt of eVery othER thIng thEy cLaimEd tt theY cARe..i WonDer..wHeN wiLl i bE abLe to rEAch thAT eXtEnt..LEaRniNg to bE sELfiSh in ProgReSs? Haha..juSt so haRd foR me.. iMMeR LoVe..Is hARd to cOmE By..nO ONE LovE wOuLd Be AblE tO LASt foReVer..If thERe's No hEArT to sUStAIn it aNd woRK ouT wIth oNe aNoTHer..BuT yOu knOe i'lL aLways be thERe fOr You..EveN thOugH..U miGhT NoT wANT to Be Moi.."ImMer_LuV"... NitEz mOi Baby..*huGz n KisSeS..* =)

2007-06-17T05:29:00.000+08:00

...Life COntinuEs...

MAn..It hAs BeeN sUCh a LonG tiME evER..sinCe i last uPdaTed..JusT everYtimE i WantEd to Blog sOmetHing...i'Ll thiNk thaT..THere's NothiNg More tHan tHosE sAMe oLd ProBleMs... WeLl tHEse weEks..i'vE beEn awAy..tO CHinA..To hElp My ParEnts W sOme Biz stUFfs..sudDenLy..DUrIng thE cOurse..i caMe to rEalise..THey ARe the OnLy ones..WhO wOulD tRULy LovE me...w/o WAntinG or eXpEcTing ANithinG in RETuRn..ExcepT foR mE to bE tRuLy hApPie..i've LeaRned..(reALlI1!!!!) to TreASUre thE time WithThEm..Luv tHem..N eXPreSs moI Love..fOr i KnoE..iF i FaLl..TheY'lL dO AnitHinG..N EvERytHing tO PicK me rite Up aGAin..AT ALL COSTs..DaD..MuM..i Luv ya!! =)

OthEr thaN thiS reaLisAtiOn..is thE sAme oLd sTufF..Sadness..JeaLouSy..uNfAiRNess..n Love..TOnNes Of Love..wElL..JuST sOmTHing DIfFErnet hERe..i'vE LearNt..n Sworn to God..THat i WOulD nOt CrY..fOr whAteVEr sHe dOes to me eVER AgaIn..(im SeriOus..i rEAlli swore..!!) iF THis iS wAt tAkeS to bE in LovE w yOu..i'lL taKe it..=) TOuGh..peOPlE maY Say thaT "WElL then, you BrOUgHt it UpoN ur sElf.." ..thiS is My wAy oF lovIng..i CHosE to lEt thE teaRs sTaY ouT of thiS fOr nOw..GueSs thE onLy thinG i wOulD cRY..iS wheN i sAw cOuplEs thaT CaRes..n SHoW theiR Love fOr eAcH otheR..LettIng D OthER persOn Knoe thAT theY aRE sPeciAL..n iRrePlaCaBle..aM i So..iN youR heARt?? i wOndEr...

In Love..THere's ALways oNE siDE giviNg mOre thAN the OTher..Most imPortaNt thinG iS to LEarN to BalancE..we MuZ giF Love BACk..tO tHosE..wHo LovEd us...We haVe to ShOW..In SOme ObViouS wAYs..FOr thEm to Knoe..thEN..THey wILl cOnTInuE to Love...EvEn More.. i've bEen GivinG aLl thiS whiLe..iT has reAchEd a wEriD equiLibriUm..suCh thaT..My sIdE is heAviER..N it kePt D baLance..hAHa..welL..gUes thiS wOulD be miNe Life..My Love FOr you My baBy..whiCH i reALlI hoPe thaT you'lL cAMe to rEaLise n LEarN to aPprEciATe..sOme dAy..~~ =)

FoR nOw..i WOuLd JUst eNJoy d tIMeS thaT we sHARe..EaCH n evERy SIngLe DAY...mY baBy..i Love YOu...*muaCk* =)

2007-05-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

...NiTE ArrIve aGain... HaiZ..SO LonG Nv PoSt...SO BusY wIth ExAMs..kAOz..STupiD Lo...ANiBodY eVer HeaRd TT sCh BefOre PrinT exaM sCriPts FOr STUdEnts Nv EveN cHecK d NumbER of QUesTions? LOL..DUmb Ass..MakE D whoLe sCH LosE 25 Marks JusT lidAt..LOL..PitY tHosE whU sTUdiEd so hARd fOr it..haIz..eXaMs ExaMs..MAkinG mE go CrasY... NigHt Has ARriVeD aGAIn..FeEL sO AfraId wHen Sun sEts eVErydAy n NighT FaLls..DarKneSs..Is DrOwninG me..GueSs wiLl nEveR be aBLe to gEt Out THis mesS..FeeL sO LoneLy..N worThLesS..wHy Muz THingS haPpeN tHis waY..I finALli cAMe to rEAlisE thaT..gOoD peopLe..May Not aLwayS haVe gOod reTUrns..haIz..But DeaR dArlinG..i'lL nv rEgREt..WhaT eVeR thAT i hAd dOne..tHrough out thE 6 YeaRs..iTs jUst sUch a Long LonG timE..N i Just WAnt tO...FeEL thE wARmTh of ur hUgs..FeeL THe LovE froM yOur KisSes..aLitTle mORe..BEfOre thE cruEL reAlIty bRIngS me dOwn..Just sO misSIng yoU.. dOnNoe wHy heArts AchIng SO baDlI..toT i wAs NumBed aLreaDY AlL thiS whiLe..TeaRs LikE sPoiLt TaP..DonnOe whEn it'lL eVer ruN DrY..Hang In thERe oR waLk AwAY..i rEALlI haf No idEa..iF LovIng yOu neEds tO bE brAve..THen walkIng aWay wouLd nEed a MiLlioN tiMes More CouraGe..JusT LovinG yOu so Much...caN yOu fEeL it?? *hUggiES tiGHt my dARlinG..* SmiLe ALwayS k~ i'lL takE aLl tHe TEaRS foR yOu...*muaCK*