WaH..So Long nv Blog..LOl..coZ kindA leaD a boring Life..whIning..dOesn'T reaLly heLp mucH..LOL
Recently..realise something terrible..that i'm just not strong..LOL have absolutly no idea..why do i cry so easily..its kinda worrying me..is it signs of depression? or just purely lack of security? HahA...
DonNoe whY fEeLinG So insEcuRed..ProbaBly comIng froM those diSturBing nIteMaRes..HAha..d Most rEceNt One..i dreaMt thaT i gaVe birTh!! LOL to A rEAl cuTe baBy GIrL..weLl cAN still rem how happie i was in my dream..coz i finally felt that there are someone..who really belongs to me...that i can spend whole heart..loving..and i knoe..i'll stand an irreplacable place in d heart...hehe...sounds cute rite?...but d nitemare part is...i dreamt..i was carrying her in my arms...n d next moment..i started bleeding..and died...!!!!(*#%*$(^@~@!# LOL..How WEriD WAs that?..Hehe...Ppl sAY..dREamS nOrmaLlY..doNt rEAllI comE true..But actually..it refLects your deepest fear, desire..and those true emotions..N i'm StarTing to believe in it..I do wan to have a baby...its okie..if who ever the father is going to be..will not be there..i'lL do my very best to gif my child a home....Haha..aBit weird for a person who's my age saying abt all this...*lol* i may look strong..independent...but guess.. all these dreams...are just telling me that i'm just afraid..of losing..the ones that i love so dearly...and longing...for a family and someone..to love me..some one...to dote on me..that i can no longer need to be strong..for that person..would shelter me...
i'm stiLl searching...buT i sinCerely hope..that you aRe the one...reaLli..